Just realized this is the longest I have gone without posting in months. I truly am in a funk. I wake up every morning, look at my kids and think "you want breakfast AGAIN?" The prospect of completing the morning routine is just overwhelming at the moment, as is working all day. And dinner? What dinner? Was I supposed to cook that? oops
What's the issue? I am sure that some of it is depression, which is something I have battled intermittenly throughout adulthood. But much of it is pain. I am on day 5 of yet another migraine and it's just getting old. A few weeks ago I was watching that commercial on TV- the one about using botox for chronic migraines. I listened to their description of the appropriate candidate for this treatment and felt sorry for individuals in that situation. Then I started to think back- I would say I have averaging 1-2 migraines a week these past few months with most of them lasting several days. It's pretty awful, and actually, it puts me into the category of "acceptable candidate" for botox. Not that I'm going to do it, but I guess I just didn't realize it had gotten this bad.
I have been going to a chiropractor to work on a back injury ( you know, from when I moved the elliptical machine to the garage) and told him about the headache situation. He did quite a bit of work on my neck last week when I went, cracking things way too many times to be normal. The good news is that for about 36 hours I was completely pain free (not counting my back). Then the headache came again. I was supposed to search for triggers also, so far this is what I found- Jack's meltdowns, any arguments, running, coffee, beer, wine, cocktails, menstrual cycle, too little sleep. Well that pretty much covers everything now doesn't it? I would be even more nervous if I hadn't had a head CT last fall during a particularly awful headache, one when I thought I was having an aneurysm. Everything looked ok, and migraines run in our family, so I have attributed it to that. Of course, brain tumors also run in my family...ugh.
Luckily the boys have been pretty good the past few days, and I have been getting some rest, in the evenings thanks to my hubby. I just need a break from all of this, it's yucky. What I really need is a few days away from all of the stressors and responsibilities of this life- my husband always answers that we should definitely try to do that sometime, we need time away from the kids. I laugh- I meant ME! All alone! Tall order I know, and not likely to happen, but a girl can dream. I can picture it now- me, quiet, my own bed....sigh.
I'm sure anyone who has migraines can completely relate. I feel so blah.
What's the issue? I am sure that some of it is depression, which is something I have battled intermittenly throughout adulthood. But much of it is pain. I am on day 5 of yet another migraine and it's just getting old. A few weeks ago I was watching that commercial on TV- the one about using botox for chronic migraines. I listened to their description of the appropriate candidate for this treatment and felt sorry for individuals in that situation. Then I started to think back- I would say I have averaging 1-2 migraines a week these past few months with most of them lasting several days. It's pretty awful, and actually, it puts me into the category of "acceptable candidate" for botox. Not that I'm going to do it, but I guess I just didn't realize it had gotten this bad.
I have been going to a chiropractor to work on a back injury ( you know, from when I moved the elliptical machine to the garage) and told him about the headache situation. He did quite a bit of work on my neck last week when I went, cracking things way too many times to be normal. The good news is that for about 36 hours I was completely pain free (not counting my back). Then the headache came again. I was supposed to search for triggers also, so far this is what I found- Jack's meltdowns, any arguments, running, coffee, beer, wine, cocktails, menstrual cycle, too little sleep. Well that pretty much covers everything now doesn't it? I would be even more nervous if I hadn't had a head CT last fall during a particularly awful headache, one when I thought I was having an aneurysm. Everything looked ok, and migraines run in our family, so I have attributed it to that. Of course, brain tumors also run in my family...ugh.
Luckily the boys have been pretty good the past few days, and I have been getting some rest, in the evenings thanks to my hubby. I just need a break from all of this, it's yucky. What I really need is a few days away from all of the stressors and responsibilities of this life- my husband always answers that we should definitely try to do that sometime, we need time away from the kids. I laugh- I meant ME! All alone! Tall order I know, and not likely to happen, but a girl can dream. I can picture it now- me, quiet, my own bed....sigh.
I'm sure anyone who has migraines can completely relate. I feel so blah.
Oh honey I feel you. I have been having migraines all too often too. I got lidocaine and steroid shots in my shoulders to try and elevate them. It worked for about 2 weeks. Now they're back. Next step is botox in my neck. Not sure I want it. Triggers are meltdowns from the kids definitely and when Dylly raises his voice so high. Depression is alot of it for me too. I'm working on that with my therapist. Many many hugs!
ReplyDeleteThank you- and let me know how the Botox goes if you do it
DeleteJust want to say I feel for you. Every time a migraine manifests itself, I pray that Jesus takes it away. And yes, it works for me! Usually pray during an hour and it is gone. Don't know if you have a relationship with God but wanted to share my story. Nothing wrong with medication, but I turn to Jesus first. So if you don't mind, I pray that those persistent migraines be gone in the name of Jesus. I pray against depression and against your back injury. I pray that you get healing for the migraines and back injury. So just agree that you will be healed. Amen! You are a great writer and made me laugh with your stories as I can relate... Keep it up and stay well. God Bless you and your lovely family.
ReplyDeleteThank you for your kind comments and your prayers- I appreciate it
DeleteFWIW, all the foods you've mentioned I've managed to counter. The alcohol doesn't get me if I drink an equivalent amount of water right around the same time and keep it to 1-2 drinks. I can *have* coffee, I just have to have a consistent amount. If I jack it up or down, then I'm in trouble. I don't drink soda at all, period. The combination of dehydrating amounts of sweetener and a spike/drop in caffeine intake got me every. single. time. I have to be really aggressive about hydrating when I run, too.
ReplyDeleteHugs. I'm really sorry. I have to medicate the second I feel one, or it becomes uncontrollable nausea. Can't work, can't drive. I don't know what I'd do if they went on for days.