Today was the big meeting for Nathan. As I stated when I posted my IEP feedback letter the other day, I approached this meeting from a far less logical, clinical perspective than I typically do. I am too worried about Nate to bother with formalities. It hit me this morning why I have been fretting so much- obviously any parent would be frustrated by how slow progress has been, and of course that is part of it. But I realized that the feeling of panic was coming more from my fear that the school would “give up” on him. This may not be rational, but it’s what I was feeling. I think I have earned the right to be a bit irrational- going through this with two kiddos, two of the people you love most in the world, is no joke. It’s taxing, it’s draining, and it’s scary as hell.